End of Summer.

Dear 2009,

Thanks for the amazing summer. I really did enjoy spending the whole day sleeping and eating and sleeping some more. The most awesome way to kill my summer time. LOL. Oh well, actually, I've done pretty much a lot during this hot era of '09. I've been to AX, the Vamps Concert, 노래방, プリクラ, and crashed at people's houses. If otherwise, it was waiting in front of my laptop all day for the new episode of FMA every Sundays [UGH. EP 21 DIDN'T COME OUT. D<]. OMG and DGM finally came out with their 50 pg special. Just letting you know. I was told it was going to come out on the 22nd [yesterday], when actually, it came out a week before~fucking tards. Anyways...whoot. Tyki Mikk looks damn fine with long ass hair. Oh man, Christina is gonne hate me for this. xD Naw naw~I still love Kanda and Allen much more~. asdfghjkl;#$%^DID I TELL YOU..err it? Kanda! My Kanda! Is he gonna die or something? Rumors...are sayin' he's gonna be brainwashed by Wisely and become bad!! ...well I'm fine with that as long he or his dignity doesn't die. D: Me loves him! Me loves him!!------Okay, I'm getting off topic. I must talk about my summer.

So, HOLYSHITfuck. School is starting tomorrow. I'm still confussled whether or not I should take my textbooks to school. They're all fucking heavy. And we're not getting our lockers until like..i derno. I'm just...not sure. xD I guess I will take 'em. Ugh. INCLUDING the locker shelves and whatnot. I'm kinda pissed. Didn't expect 2 locker shelves, 2 packets of college rule line paper, a tiny locker mirror, a little white board, and some magnets would turn out to be fucking $60 @ Staples. WTF. UGH. I'm broke too. D':>. Anyways~yea. I'm glad school ends kinda early tomorrow. It's only half day. :P But then...we have two tests based on our summer reading~around this week...which means STUDY NOW. Haha. Ummm...Well Christine is comin' to IH. It's gonna be nice to see her. I also heard some other girl I know from the past [and i will not mention her name] is coming too. TT___TT...I remember her to be very mean. But hopefully she's gonna be nicer to me~and things will change. Oh yea. I have to thank Earl for telling me how hard Sophomore year is gonna be. I just wish I'm not gonna be stressed out. I know there will be tests, quizzes, homework, projects, and essays....including COPR work....UGH. Wait it sounds stressful already. I hope I get some of my own solitude time. I want to be able to catch up on my sleeping time, art, nihongo, hangeul, and piano. And for COPR~~~If we don't win the poster contest, everyone's gonna blame me we lost. But...I hope I can stay after school and be creative enough to fucking paint my ass off and WIN.WIN.WIN. YES! LOL.

Anyways, I just wanna thank Summer. I saw some amazing movies and went to Bday parties and Six Flags. Pretty good. I mean, even though I didn't go ourt of country or at least state like some other lucky bitches, I actually liked my Summer. It was something I've been looking foward to since the day I started 9th Grade. Now...I'm looking foward to Summer '10 ALREADY. I bet next year will be even bomber. LOL if that even is a word...There's gonna be World Cup!! YES! I'm so gonna show my spirit~Korean Pride. Oh, wait. I think not. SAT prep classess.....haha. Yeah~Thanks. Wish Summer comes sooner.~And maybe find a boyfriend while at it. :] I'm glad. This vacation gave me time to hang with my homies~. I haven't hung out with them 'cause school got in the way. /sigh//BYE BYE.

Love,

Sang Joo~<3>

1 Y E A R A N N I V E R S A R Y

TODAY is our one year anniversary. Whose? Ours~Kanda & Me. Hehehe! I'm so happy.

/sigh. It's already been a year, eh? Wow. The 21st of every month, I've made soba and pumpkin tempura for him. :3...Well I tell my grandma to make 'em. lol.

Oh, Yuu Kanda. I love you! 08.21.

And tomorrow is the 22nd! DGM continues on!! AND KANDA'S PAST IS REVEALED!!

So excited. C:

It's fate.

Rainbow Bridge.

On Wednesday, October 2-, 2006... My Beloved Dog named Sooni died during surgery.

She made my seven years happy and not worry about anything else. She was loyal and always slept by my side, and I considered her as my best friend. I never saw it coming that day, that she would be under a dreadful condition and leave me in despair. Basically, I couldn't come back to my own house, because everything would remind me of her and I'd break down into tears every time. Regret floods back to me and overwhelms me with guilt. I feel that I could've prevented this. My mom made me feel better by telling me that I'll be able to see her again in heaven, where she will be waiting for me. But, once again, I lost all hope when my teacher mentioned to me all animals have no souls and will never reach heaven. Some people tell me "She's only a dog", but I never considered her as a pet, but more of a faithful family member and lifetime companion. Is it true I'll never be able to see her again? Will God be here at times like this, or is he merely a belief?

However...

"Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable. All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together…"

– Author Unknown

D A R K E R T H A N B L A C K

I finished Darker Than Black this morning. Wowzers. Amazing show. I mean, it has great plot, sexy characters, originality, and it's fucking addicting. Oh yes, and kick ass graphics. Hei~Hei~Hei~He makes me happy. LOL. I've found another husband. Oh my God, but as always, I have this thing where I don't like girl character. In this case, it's Amber [February]. Sucks, 'cause her code name is the month I was born. /kills myself. I mean like, she's cool and pretty and all. But---she has feelings for Hei [and I'm afraid he has feelings for her, too.] She fucking kisses him two times! D<>3>

Anyways~I must talk about my sexy beast. HEI!! :D Can't wait until October, man! New season!! And his hair grows LONGER. Oh, man. I'm getting hard. You know I have a very strong fetish for guys with long hair. *ㄱ* And I can't wait to see his sexy collarbones again. I just wanna stare at it...and touch it...and lick it...8DD~Fucking eyegasm. And...I love the way he wears that sexy mask. And that black coat. OH SHIT. YES YES.

Hei.<3

Chilling @ 노래방.

Ah-Lalalalala. Hung out with Nat, Grace, Stacey, Earl, Christine, and Danny. Uh...I was the first one to wait at the fountatin. Sucked, 'cause I was alone for like half an hour drinking boba on an empty stomach~~~TUMMYACHE. And I was talking to Nat on the phone. That slow ass missed her bus, so she came late. Then Earl and his lover Danny came. Danny wore green, which I appreciate. Green is my favorite colour after all. And his beautiful green bracelet~SAVE THE EARTH. Um, I used the bathroom like three times in less than ten minutes. It was the boba~ㅋㅋㅋ. Oh, and Christine came! Wow~It's been so long since I've seen her. About a year, I think. We'll be reuniting again. She's transferring to Imac. Hooray! Then Grace and Stacey finally came. Turns out they "kinda" ditched prep. LOL. Around 2pm, we had to stop by at Earl's crib, 'cause he had to grab his money. GAWD, Nat and Earl walked like so far in a matter of time, the rest of us lost them. We just made up an excuse to stay behind saying "someone tripped and hurt their ankle"~. I derno who that was. I think they talked about me. xD bitches. Anyways, like while we were walking, I just started spazzing out. I swore I saw Obama out standing on an apartment balcony....it was a cardboard. OK. So we finally made it to nrb like around 4pm---yes, it was a long journey. /sigh. ~~~@ N R B~~~WE SANG OUR HEARTS OUT. Danny and Earl sang the gayest songs: Bye Bye Bye, Sexyback, and Barbie Girl. I LOL'd so hard at Danny's falseto voice! xDD. I attempted to sing Love Seat, Halo, Fire, Love Love Love, 1분 1조, and...Again. UGH. I FAIL SO HARD. KILL ME. Yeah~~and...we went to the Rosen cafe and I bought mochi<3.>again. Haha. I pigged out on the cheese ddokbokgi. ASDFGHJKL;@#$%OMG. I took a bite of this dumpling and realized it had meat in it, so I ran to the bathroom and spit it all out! I thought it was the end of me TT^TT. FUCK. Ugh. Oh yuh~I met Earl's bro and jap friend. MAN THEY ALL LOOK THE SAME. I thought they were related. xD. And it was so awkward meeting his mama. Grace, Nat, and I were like " . . . "~oh yeauh. I left Earl's drawing at his home. I WANT MY YAOI BACK. D<. I failed to mention that during out walk, Grace and I came up with a couple name for Earl and Nat. Like y'know Earl + Nicole = Earcole. LOLOL~SOUNDS LIKE URKEL. XD

Kim's DAY

Haha. So it was like my best friend's B-day today and I had such a great time. I went over to her house around 7pm last night and ate like 3 seconds. xD~&&&we ate brownies, flan, some-other-filipino-dessert, and ice cream while we watched our movie JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE. Then we watched No Reservation. Haha~Man so cute. xD. After that, we went upstairs to her room and put on lotsa make up on each other. LOL. We looked so scary. xD~She looked Jefferey Star and I looked like Rock Lee. WTF!! Haha. And it took us like an hour to take the make up off. Well, we didn't get all of it out, because we quit. And then---we went to sleep at 3am. SO SO FUN. HAHA. I had a feeling I wasn't going to wake up the next day [today]. She set the alarm on for 8...and when the alarm went off, she tried to wake me up, but I asked for one more hour. ONE HOUR LATER~~~She tried to wake me up, but I asked her for ten more minutes. TEN MINUTES LATER~~~She tried to wake me up, but once again, I asked for two more minutes. Sadly, she did not want to. Instead, her attempt to get me awake took the whole two minutes. I fell out of the bed...TT^TT. Anyways, we were able to get ready and get to the movies on time, which was like 11 something. UGH, I was so fuckin tired. I really wanted to sleep in the theatres. However, since we watched 500 Days of Summer, I just had to stay awake. [Oh yeah, there were six people there in total :: Me, Kim , Alyssa, Paul, Trina, and Estelle]. Oh my God. SO NOW I'M GONNA START MY RANT ABOUT THE MOVIE. I absolutely loved the movie. I loved the main character. He is such a sweety. Not to mention hella funny. I just kept cracking up. And...Summer. /sigh. If only they ended up together. That truly made me depressed. I mean, it's like one of those very few movies where they actually show how fucked up reality is. There wasn't exactly the happy ending we were expecting for. I really wanted everyone to get their inmost desire~~~be with the one you love. /cries. But Summer and Tom did not stay together til the end. She got married to some random dude, which left Tom heartbroken. However, at least he met someone else named Autumn. xD~~~Haha, but still. If I was Summer, I would never want to let Tom go. If I was in Tom's situation, I would never be able to be as strong as him, and eventually want to kill myself. Ok SO ENOUGH. Well, Kim and I saw the trailor of THE TIME TRAVELER'S WIFE. asdfghjkllI;; OMG. Like---I think this is fuckin sadd. Just imagining me in her shows [watching my husband disappear] would just tear me up inside. Kim and I almost cried just watching the trailor. But I really do want to watch the movie. I want to read the book too. Haha. /sigh// Romantic movies make me depressed. D': I really want to have someone to love. I wish Envy or Kanda or Allen was real. I'd be the happiest girl in the world.

Ending of Shaman King.

PFFTTT =3=

Like two days ago, this dude named Earl SOMEHOW SOMEWHAT MAGICALLY mentioned SHAMAN KING. *0* And I remembered how I used to be obsessed with it in 4th grade...then read the manga in 7-8th grade...and then after Hiroyuki Takei abandoned the project, I became saddd and stopped the whole obsession thing.

OK SO. I remembered all the updates I read about the continuation of SK called Kang Zeng Bang. [I really wanted to know the FUCKIN REAL ENDING!!!]

I read it this morning...*cries*

First of all, I just CAN'T get over Hao's amazing character xD~~~I love evil people. B-but I don't think he's EVIL. Just....misunderstood. D':

---and he's so cute...and he's so pretty with that long hair...and he's so hot when he smirks. LOL.

Second, the whole purpose for Hao's reason to become SK has come to an end. All those years he's gone through deep sadness and loneliness, he finally meets Ohachiyo and his mommy. :'D

That made me get all teary. I can't explain it. Do you know what it's like to see the process of an "evil" person to go through to become finally good?

AND AND AND what also made me :) was when Opacho like jumps into Hao's BLACK HOLE and says "I'll be your star"---or something like that, Hao immediately stops his OS in order to stop the BLACK HOLE from absorbing Opacho. :DD

See? He HAS SOME GOOD IN HIM!!

LMAO. Um...I just can't seem to get over Hao's kickass powers. I thought his powers of the universe was so HOLY-AMAZING. I mean the way he makes the stars explode [SUPERNOVA] and shows the outcome of an explosion [BLACK HOLE]...I nearly fainted from this powerful presence. xD

Just reading/looking at it made me drop. *[]*

Haha~~so yuh. Just wanted to talk about the ending.

MY EFFIN LORD. CAN'T BELIEVE IT ACTUALLY ENDED...officially. *cries again*

I love you, Hao. <3

arghck.

*sigh*. So it's already a few days into August. I start school in less than two weeks (HOLY SHIT!). I really don't feel like getting into bed early in order to wake up early. I still haven't ordered those gawddamn expensive textbooks yet---which means if I don't do it now, I'm going to get them really late. Great. =____________= Oh, yeah. I have to read one more novel "The Kindred". But...unfortunately, none of the libraries near me currently have them. I bet the people from my school are hogging them all. UGH. And my uniform. It's getting all torn up. I knew I should not have skipped the used-uniform-sale thing. I'm going to feel like a bum.

Well...besides getting ready for school, I still haven't completed my Summer Goals. Haha. Lately, I've been slacking off on 한글학교----You can say it's my mom's fault. After she left for Korea, I'm left at home...with no ride, whatsoever. So you can't really blame me. It is pretty nice to sleep in Saturday morning...but that means I'm not ever going to be able to speak to my parents ever-so-fluently. Seriously, I suck. But I want to be able to speak like a normal Korean person. It'll be SO HUMILIATING if I go to Korea like this. *slaps myself*. And...I really need to start going to some good art institutes. I'm not making any progress with my suckass skills. I SHOULD JUST DIE, right? My mom promised me she'll send me soon...she said this three years ago. =o=;; And I still need to buy my friends their b-day presents. WTF, are they triplets?? They're all born in the same month, GAWD. I'm going so broke. After spending $250 bucks at AX [I got myself some sexy posters, a TABLET, and the second half of FMA series :DD], $95 on the day of the V A M P S concert [ASDFGHJKL; HYDExK.A.Z. so sexy. Another good day~~~stood in line for more than 12 hours &&& my legs STILL hurt], $600 for summer school [---my computer class grade was a B-. *sob*.], $500 for my school donation fee [wtf.], $80 for a new cellphone [I had to get it replaced after I lost it], and SO ON~. Yeah...I'm really poor now. And that's very big money to our family, because---FUCKTHEECONOMY. Anyways..where was I? Oh, yes. I have to get even better at nihongo~~~ because I'm watching a lot of raw anime and reading a lot of raw manga, which I most of the time don't get it....*sigh*.

I want to grow my hair...at least like 5 inches past my boobs. 8D And then I want to die it black and get some awesome colored streaks in it [I'm aiming for silver or platinum blonde].

***OMG! I'm moving this year. HUZZAH! I seriously can't wait.***

I'm getting a new puppy, too! ---from my dear friend Stephanie....no, it's her sister that's giving one to me. Haha. Well...I didn't exactly tell my parents that...but PSHHH, it's going to be okay...Hehe *sweating*.