「 G O O D ★ D A Y 」: 2010

9.23.2010

Ummm.....I think I like him. I always look forward to seeing him. He's the only one that talked to me. He's the only one that was interested in me. He's the only one who looked right through me.
Stop. Stop. I don't wanna like you.

7.25.2010

SMILE

My church had a lock in on Friday and chilled the whole night playing Uno and watching Zoolander. We had to wake up early and leave by 6:30am to Paramount for community service. I shouldn't have gone... I had SAT. But whatever. RT suggested for u to go, and I went, cuz he was gonna be there. :D So we went. We worked hard, cruel, awesome hours in the hot, scorching sun renovating and old house. I moved to where Esther, Young Chul, Jinho, and RT were workin. I guess I was frowing (most likely cuz of the sun). All of a sudden I heard someone singing "~put a smile on your face~" and I looked up to see who's lovely voice it was. RT was singing for me. I had butterflies in my stomach and my heart fluttered. I instantly smiled and laughed ~out of joy. And it was nice seeing his face and hearing his voice. It was totally worth the hard hours of working to spend those few seconds with RT. I felt like at that moment, the galaxy revolved around us. Now, I spend a big deal of time thinking about that sweet moment. I really like him. And I'll be really sad to see him leave next week. TT__________TT

I saw Inception. I was mind blown. Totally awesome, and probably one of th best movies I've ever seen. THE ENDING was a friggin cliffhanger, and I"M DYING. But its ok. That was genius. Everything was genius. The plot. The characters. The cast. The action. The science. The soundtrack. The connection. The romance. The sadness. God. I'm still amazed. I loved it. I love Leonardo Dicaprio and Joseph Gordon-Levitt even more. Ellen Paige is adorable. Marion Cotillard is beautiful. Ken Watanabe is so cool. I'm definitely watching it again with my mom and I'm going to buy the movie. Shiet. <3

7.24.2010

Why...

do I feel like the third wheel? It doesn't make sense.

7.03.2010

2-5pm

I had a dream about him. Was it at church or camping? I think both. It was both romanitc and terrifying. Yeah the camping trip was just scary. You can say the mood was very similar to the that of The Headless Horseman shet. On our way to our site, there was a massacred town. =___= Bloody and a lot of dead ppl. Buildings were gone. Yeah, you know it seemed like there was never daylight.
At church, ET told RT to do something. He looked at the big, empty wall there and laughed and said in Korean, "If he asked me to vandalize here, I can do it great." But of course I knew he didn't mean it in a bad way. He meant that he could display his artistic abilities on it. I asked, "Then why don't you?" He probably thought why not. RT got a chalk and started to draw out some basic lines as if he knew what he wanted on that all rght away. I watched and I couldn't help but feel happy. Just being with him...I felt it was unhealthy for me. Even though I'm so extremely happy when I'm just around him, I feel a wound in my heart. It hurts because there's so many things that tell me it's wrong to like him. So anyways, while I was dazing at him drawing on the wall, I just said it's alright to not do it and go do ET' work. He just said, "mmm nah :P." Haha so cute. You know what he was drawing? He wrote my name (I was very flattered) in a very nice and creative away...that I don't remember. I just remember thinking that way. I also remember being blown away by this skills at decorating around my name. And then I woke up. ARGHHH. I wanted to sleep again. I couldn't stop thinking about him. TT_TT

7.02.2010

. . .

난 항상 오빠 때문에 웃는다

정말 좋아서

6.29.2010

You know that one movie...

...where a student and a teacher fall in love?? It's a Korean movie. I don't quite remember...but I remember watching it when I was really little with my mom/grandma. The movie's setting was a high school. It featured Moon Geun Young and that this other guy (I forget his name all the time ugh).
This is the only thing that brings my hopes up. The only thing that makes me believe we could happen.
But mostly...no. 95% of the time it will not happen.

6.28.2010

I'm afraid

of falling in love.

I'm sure I haven't officially fell in love yet, but a crush is the beginning of one.

I've never had a great feeling about having a crush. Only the fact that I have something to look forward to in the day, like meeting the guy, that's it!

I'm just really scared of being heartbroken.

Even though I really like him, there's too many problems between us already.

Right now, I need to focus on my future. I need to focus on GOD.

God. Whatever happens, I know it's your plan.

My only request is that before that person leaves, I want him to know how special he is. I know great things are ahead of him.

He deserves a great lady. :')

3 mo.

It's been more than 3 months since I've blogged here... I was experiencing a few problems logging into blogger. But now it finally works. :)
I just wanted to say a lot has happened during those 3 months.
I'm moving to Fairfax hs. I'm kinda scared. I also have P.E ... =____= gonna die.
So I was thinking about getting a membership at 24 hour Fitness. But not by myself. Haha.
I have SAT class and art class. For church, I'm volunteering for VBS. I can't wait.
I remember when I had my first and only VBS back then in 4th grade I believe. It was a great and memorable experience and I hope I can help make VBS 2010 awesome for the children. :D
I also have a crush. Very rare 0______0. Oh Gawd. //sighhh.
And I'm so attached to church now. It's so fun and the ppl there are cool. I recently went camping to Big Bear and Mammoth. So fun!!

Btw. During the time that I wasn't able to blog here, I got a tumblr and got attached to twitter. But now that blogger works for me again (i hope so), I'll be on this a lot more often. :)

This site...no one follows me, and I follow no one. That's why, I can pour out more easily. It's like an online diary. Haha~

//Sighhh. I can't stop thinking about him. What's wrong with me.

3.20.2010

2010.03.20

LAST NIGHT, I had a dream about HONG KI. <3

It took place at . . . I'm not sure what the place was. I walked in with Rei and there were students (?) sitting in a row. I expected it to be all girls . . . but there were some guys. Which made me really happy. I took at seat at the left row (left when I look; right when I sit). I looked around and I saw this really attractive guy . . . it was Hong Ki! I was like =*w*=. I looked again and he turned his head away from me quickly . . . was he looking at me?? hmmmm. I told Rei he's really cute. Rei looked and she agreed. But I sighed . . . I have no chance with him cuz he's too beautiful for me~ Rei said What are you talking about? He's looking at you. WHOOT WHOOT!!! It means we have this connection. :)

After I went to the bathroom, I built up the courage to talk to him. I admired his watch and he talked to me back. Rei passed by with a teasing expression on her face. Haha. <3>

3.19.2010

____ANNOYED

I AM annoyed. By this one particular person. I don't know why I hang out with her. She thinks she knows everything and that she's always right. She thinks whatever she does is cool; she doesn't listen to me cuz she doesn't care. If I show her something and she doesn't know it, but she likes it, she lies and says she knows it...which i don't understand whyyyy. OK YEAH. It's annoying. Stop or go die or something. >.>

I love the Weather.

76°F/52°FTodayPlentiful sunshine. High 76F. Winds SW at 10 to 15 mph.:) I'm working on my bio project. I just can't stop looking outside and wanting to lie down on the grass.

3.15.2010

Jaebeom Oppa.

I feel like crying. I'm so glad he's finally revealing himself to the public. I would hate it if he hid forever. I miss him so muchhh!~ Oppa!! H W A I T I N G ! ! ! Hope you have a great future! I'll never forget you. :'D

3.14.2010

H A P P Y W H I T E D A Y ! ! ~

fuck all the guys that didn't buy my white chocolate. hehe~

i hope i have a good dream tonight. usually, i have nice dreams involving my husbands on special days!

TODAY was Ye-Eun's 2nd year of formation. :) I didn't stay until night service however. i thought i was gonna be able to finish 2 essays when i got home...but i fucking didn't. fml.

i learned today about the debates that are stirred from Jesus's existence. there was this atheist man who wanted to prove that Jesus did not exist. in the end, from investigating so many things, he realized he was wrong and converted to believing in God. :)

CONS: 1. Jesus did not die on the cross. From loss of blood he passed out. When he was sealed away he regained his strength to leave the cave. 2. Roman soldiers were guarding the wrong tomb. Mary went to the wrong tomb. His disciples went to the wrong tomb. Everything wrong tomb. 3. His disciples had the courage to push a 4000lb boulder without waking the "if" sleeping solders.

PROS: 1. Jesus lost more than 2 litres (or pints) of blood. It's impossible for a human to survive this blood loss. Do you really think he can suddenly recuperate and push a 4 ton boulder all the way up a hill with holes in his hands/feet/side and all those insane injuries? 2. WTF WRONG TOMB. OK THAT'S JUST RETARDED. 3. His disciples were cowards. It's inhumane to push a boulder up a hill.

Yeahhhh~interesting it was.

Oh and on Friday I learned that God is faithful to us.