2009.11.28

Thanks to KING Jasmin, I spent the whole day reading He's Dedicated To Roses by a Korean manhwaka. :D WOW. I loved it!! Hmmm...I'm not sure who I like better! Naru or Shinah!! Like Naru is super tall with a model's body!! He's half European and has nothing important in life except one thing ----the person he loves. Now that's sexy, don't ya think? He has a cold personality, but that cute, giddy smile, and adorable glittering eyes totally lightens my mood! I only saw this maybe 2-3 times in the manhwa and totally made me head-over-heels for him. I love how he risks his life too. TT TT Now...Shinah. He reminds me of Kyouya from Ouran! I love his side-swept hair and nerdiness. So sexy....and mature. :D He's the President of his school, and RICH. I would love to be his slave...and maybe be tutored /cough sex education .cough.

Uh yea. Thanks.

So...I forgot it was my mom's B-Day. It was 11.22...the day of the Dir en Grey concert. MANNN I feel so guilty and horrible. TT TT

I think she was upset too, but didn't say anything. Yeah, she reminded me the next morning cuz I was wondering why we had cake in the fridge. FUCK FUCK FUCK me, God. I am a horrible daughter. And like we're so broke right now. How am I supposed to pay my $50 debt?? LOL..and I want to go to Winter Formal cuz they're doing the Masquerade theme [my idea, guys! they used it and i'm so happy]. I need to pay $56 for the ticket and I need to buy a nice mask too. We have no money, so I'm just gonna wear my graduation dress from 8th grade /sob. Oh and I want red dorky glasses. SOMEONE never called me to ask if I wanted one. hmph.

MAN. Thanksgiving is crap. I haven't done anything. My mom and grandma went gambling and they're coming back tomorrow. We didn't have a nice family dinner. My dog is sick. FUCK.

Oh and it doesn't even feel like a break. I have so much fucking shit to do. And I'm so behind---gotta study for Geo and World Civ.

D I R E N G R E Y <3 again.

D I R E N G R E Y <3

$%^&

CONCERT.

OMG. AMAZING. I went with Jasmin and waited in line from 11-7 on 2009.11.22

then we waited until like 8:40 for them to come out. WOWOWOW. It was mind blowing and awesome, guys. Geesh. And AUTOGRAPH SESSION.

I met all of them and shook hands. Shinya is hot and soo adorable. Die was so sexy...like his hair was all blowing. Kaoru is so emotional :D. Toshiya's uneven hair was BOMB. And Kyo's amazing vocal skills (and body) totally turned me on. MAN. I thought Kyo was gonna be bitchy so i was kinda intimidated while going up to him. BUT MAN. He's so chill!! HAHAHA and when I shook hands with Shinya, I said "I like you" in japanese cuz i don't think he speaks english. He nodded and laughed!! HAHAAH AWWW <3.

Ok pics. :D

FUCK

PISSED! I TYPED SO FUCKIN MUCH FOR MY BLOG ABOUT MY DREAM. SEE THAT ENTRY BELOW THIS?!? IT'S UNFINISHED! I TYPED EVERYTHING, BUT WTF! IT ALL DISAPPEARED!! UGHHH!!!

Ok. I'll leave off where I didn't finish. I wanna get to the end.

I somehow managed to run out of the doors. I didn't stop running, and people stared at me. Tears streamed down, either if it was from relief that I escaped, or pain...that I wasn't saved; rather, I saved myself. Then, as if Allen had heard my cry, he appeared with Cross Marian. All of my frustration disappeared, and I was happy again. He comforted me. [btw he was wearing his red uniform; SO HOT. *///*] Yeah. I'm not sure how my dream ended, but I was happy. Y'all probably won't understand or know what I experienced or what kind of emotions rushed to me. But it's ok. You'll never know, but I will. I'll still be happy, that my hero came in the end. :'D

What's up.

I'm too lazy to explain what happened...so I'll just copy and paste what my dear Rei said on her Tumblr. :D

"Saturday, at Art Center Saturday High, our model was this very very large man wearing very very little. He was very energetic, kind, and jolly. He allowed us to take pictures too. I’d upload them, but as I said, he wasn’t wearing much…

Also, we had a sit-in student from Howaritz’s class. The guy’s name was Sen. Yeah he was cute but I already have John! :D Mikki and I switched pens but Sen didn’t have one so I lent him Mikki’s pen hahaha… At the end of class, I was trying to ask him for the pen back as he was leaving the studio but he didn’t answer. How mean! Luckily, he left it on the counter and Mikki found it :)"

I've been sick for the last few days. Didn't go to school for three days. /le gasp.

It's like...somewhat my first time missing school that much. xD So at home, I've been sleeping a lot. When I talk, my voice sounds scary...like a dead person. T T

OMG I DIDN'T SAY. I had a very...nice dream. xD I really did. Mostly about my heroic, lovely, cute, adorable, innocent, strong ALLEN WALKER. <3>

So...there was this huge monster terrorizing Costco. It looked like a ...some kinda reptile. Like a dragon/dinosaur/alligator...LIZARD. haha. Yeah, It was a dark, swampy green. WOW. I JUST REALIZED---it looked some what like Envy's form. >A<

So...everyone ran out screaming. And the doors shut and locked. I was the only one left in there. Terrified. I hid behind the aisles and stuff...nearest to the locked exit, hoping that somehow it will open for me to spare my life. However, the monster had a keen sense of smell and followed my trail. It knew I was there. Then...I was not alone. Some random guy was next to me. I forgot who it was, but it was a friend I knew. I think it was Earl. LOL WHY. But...we talked and I had high hopes that there was going to be someone to save us----Allen Walker. YEP. I told Earl that when we part ways, my goal is to look for Allen [cuz he is my love<3].>

Goodbye_________Dear Cyworld

It's been very nice these past years having a US CY.
I met a lot of people. Found great friends from another country; or live in another state. Fell in crush all over again. PENPAL-ish relationships. ACORNS TO GATHER --- then take over the world. Designing my own mini hompy was fun too :'D oh and reading people's funny posts. xD
But now~~it's all over. Cyworld is shuttin down on Feb 2010. I can't really access it anymore right now.
I'm listening to Babo by Big Bang right now. Gosh I love that song. But I hate it how it reminds me of the cyworld days~~~I used to be so excited to get home from school and log right on to cy...to talk to Shion. GOSH SHION. Ugh. If he was reading this right now...he'll freak. xD
Oh well...But I still wish I'm his sweetie...and he will always be my honey.

10K WALK

Wow. I'm so proud of myself. Lemme just get something straight. I hate exercising. xD It's painful, a'ight? Well...But I love the outcome of it. You're all fit and healthy. Sweating is not a good feeling at the moment. But once you feel the breeze against the moist skin, it feels so damn good. :3

So today was the 10K Walk. I felt like such a loser. I was the only person who didn't meet the quota and DID NOT HAVE A NICE T-SHIRT TO WEAR LIKE EVERY OTHER 500 PPL. I stood out. HAHA. Anyways...10K=like 6.7 miles~~~SAME shit as 7. Uh huh. I was one of the runners. I wanted to get a head start and it was nice. I lost Rei and Jocy, so I ended up bonding with Grace and Grace errr Eun Hae. IT WAS PAINFUL. A painful run and walk full of misery. It took like 2 hours to get all around Los Feliz.

So I heard people screaming and get all excited. We spotted 2 celebs todayyy~Michael Cera and some dude from Grey's Anatomyyy. Yeah. We're cool like that >D. Man I never realized all the nice houses we were passing by were STAR TERRITORY, BOBO.

I felt so sticky after that exercise. But I'm so happy. Came in 78th place out of 500+ pplz ^^. Last year I was in the 100s. Next year I'll be better~don't worry. I won't die Haha.

Well I felt guilty. After that splendid 10K Walk, I ate 2 and a half veggie dogs, 2 bags of chips, a can of soda, and icecream. oh and some fruit roll-ups. MAN FUCK. Now I feel fat again.

But we walked around k-town a lot too. all 'cause Eun Hae wanted to buy her books. xD Well ish ok. I was able to buy my FMA manga v.23 :DDD

so yeah. nice day. memorable.

2009.10.31

So on Friday, I was Mio from K-On. xD

Except...I didn't have a bass....T T

&& I ate so much. D: Like...I felt so fat. I never wanna eat again. But...I still am eating. I ate like 2 minutes ago. /sigh.

And on Saturday (Halloween) after Art Center, I got dropped off @ Aroma by my mom to audition for JYP. I was freaking out 'cuz I thought auditions ended @ 2. But it was @ 4. So I was #212, but I got moved down to 430. I was alone and scared. Haha. So many beautiful, hot, sexy, tall girls...and SO MANY BEAUTIFUL, HOT, SEXY, TALL, FOB MEN!!! <3 I was like /drool. *w* Well...I know I suck @ singing...so I was extremely scared I would be humiliated. But ya know. It was cool. I met this one cool dude. He's extremely talented and told me "no worries". And he came out on American Idol too!

So I was singing "If I Ain't Got You" by Alicia Keys. Too bad some random lady [and not JYP D':] cut everyone off @10 seconds....not a minute. >__>

Rei and I went trick-or-treating late @ night. @first my mom said no....but then Rei's mama convinced my mom :D. And we went around all the rich houses near the Grove on 3rd st. LOL Rei wanted to visit her John, but we ended up not. We didn't really get a lot of candy either. xD But enough for my dad to enjoy.

HAHA.

Then we bumped into Jasmin, Essy, and their beloved rubix cube. xD Kool~asians.